~feeling~

i can choose to be happy or sad and whichever i choose that is what i get..i know...yes i know!!no one is really responsible to make someone else happy, no matter what most people have been taught and accept as true...i'm sorry if i looks so desperate to you..i'm just hate this feeling..the soul that sees beauty may sometimes walk alone..that's me!!! sometimes i feel it's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone (so far)..i just want to be happy with you..i don't want to burden u anymore =(

all alone!whether i like it or not, alone is something i'll be quite a lot.....i cannot run away from it..hukhuk...i hate to be alone!!but i have to =(

learning process

FOR THE SAKE OF LOVE AND FOR THE LONG LASTING RELATIONSHIP, I WILL IGNORE ANNOYING PEOPLE AND CUTTING OUT MY CHILDISH BEHAVIOR AND ACTING LIKE A MATURE ADULT!! I WON'T SAY I DON'T CARE ANYMORE BCOZ I DO CARE ABOUT IT. I JUST DON'T WANT TO HURT HIM AND WORRIES AND CRYING LIKE A BABY FOR NOTHING. I KNOW HE LOVE ME AS I DO. NOTHING TO WORRY TIKA. TRUST HIM!!

hAiRhAiRhAiRsTyLe~

should i cut my hair or just let it grow long?? i want a long hair but i feel boring to wait it growing. i want to dye it but i'm afraid my hair become worst! hermmm...

i really adore a volume long hair style. so the answer is, i must wait and wait even though i don’t have the patience to wait for my hair to grow. sabar jer laa......

the most boring day ever

where is everybody?? this place is so empty without gossips, laughs, shout of joy and no people walk here and there and everywhere..... huhhh!! what a boooooring dayyyyyyy......

i'm at office now. and i am so jealous at people who take an advantage..ops! sorry. take a leave for chinese new year. here i can see what is the 1 malaysia is.

happy chinese new year

to everyone especially for chinese people =)

tonight i'm going back to my hometown.. yeye!! can't wait for a long journey to the north with my housemate, peja, anati, dina, kak lin and few of anati's friends.

bye bye my boyfriend. we have to separate for a week.. uwaaaaa. i'm seriously gonna be miss u so much sayang. and u're gonna miss me too =( take good care of yourself. jangan naughty. mmuahx.. I LOVE U SO MUCH!

who is the better driver? men or women?

my answer is WOMEN!! i am sick n tired of slow driver n most of them is MEN. it's happened to me so many times and i hate it. men always blame women for driving slow but in fact they don't know that men break more traffic laws and drive more slowly than women. i've seen this kind of cases so many times and i am sick of it!! i want to throw out this issue long time ago but i don't know where to begin until i read http://chielalala.blogspot.com/2010/02/jangan-lembab-boleh-tak.html and i agree with her. this is bcoz men loves violate laws designed to make the roads safer and they cause more accidents and expensive damage. LEMBAB! suka hati nak laju kat tempat slow and slow kat tempat laju. what are u guys thingking MEN? smoking while driving, sms or on call while driving, cruising along with one hand on the wheel... u guys think it is cool? it's really annoying me!! can u imagine at the traffic jam they drive like makan angin and show their not really cool face to others like searching for a "future wife". and drive slow at the highway at the middle lane. hello...kenderaan lembab ikut kiri! hogging the middle lane is not only selfish, it'd downright stupid.


p/s : this statement is for certain MEN only. (selalu jumpa time blik keje. kluar juntion slow.. jalan lambat time green light da lame menyala..lembab dekat highway! ntah laaa..)

PRACTICAL

practical training was great!! i love the working environment. acting like a busy career women or workaholic wannabe (even almost everyday i came to office n just goyang kaki) my office was awesome! officemate n bosses are so so so friendly n open minded. we are happy working together (if any).

how quickly time passes until i cannot relized how faster december n january left me. on december, i'm busy with the kick-off ceremony with Agro Bank. on january, i'm busy with the new product launching. i can't wait to busy myself with becoming event for this month (this must be annoy my bf bcoz i keep complaining to him about this n that n bla bla bla..hehe) all the event was great n i'm happy after everything done successfully. i miss the busy time when i have nothing to do (like nowhere). this is my daily routine (if no event) :

9.30 am (late by 30 minutes everyday) arrived at office, turn on lappy, online.......online until lunch at 12.45pm (15minutes early everyday) back to office at 2pm (on time everyday) continue online until end of office hour 5.45pm (15minutes early) - i am not a punctual person as i mention in my resume...hahaha

huh!! i need to finish my report proposal. the due date to submit is next week. i always think about it. the "proposal song" always playing in my mind but i don't even know what happen to me. why i am so lazyyyy....mayb i will start during this chinese new year. thanks to my boyfriend. he really helps me a lot. i just copy and paste from his idea..huhu. thank u sayang, i love u!

sports!!

i'm getting fat. yes! i am fat already. i saw one of my picture the other day, i look really fat. i hate that dress and i make sure i will not wear it again. yes! the white dress i wear for my office dinner. now i have the answer why i am not enjoy the night. i blame it on the dress. it make me look fat, damn fat. to make thing worse, my boyfriend said i look sexy bcoz my b***s looks bigger than usual. hahaha.. u know that is not true right. he even think that i can just eat whatever i like without thinking about the outcome. haha.. hermm...the more i think about i'm getting fat, the more i will become - i guess!! is that right??

i better to stop now. better get busy with SPORTS - my boyfriend suggest me to get involved in sports. i agree with him. let my body work a bit. yeah!yeahh!! come on guys. lets burn more fat with sports!!

i-City, Shah Alam

the place seem really like a heaven guys!! u should go there. first time i was there i feel like i'm walking in a WONDERLAND (atiqah in a wonderland). i went there with my lovely boyfriend, syafiq last sunday night. enjoy the pictures!


p/s: baby, i think we need our own camera ASAP. the picture quality from camera phone wasn't good enough laa...

the HMS APPRECIATION DINNER

the dinner was great. i love RED. but i am not enjoy the dinner. i don't know why. i'm not happy at all.

jamming

i was supposed to post this story last thursday, but i am so busy until have no time for blogging..

i was forced by my bos to singging for the dinner of our company, it was last friday..i MUST join them jamming n it was so horrible n i dread in every minute of it!! i had no choice n just let them to fooled myself by singging infront of others. the song that i sing is "CINTA" by krisdayanti n melly.. i feat with MULIA, my gorgeous bos.

love is everywhere

i know he love me as i do....


dear baby,
i still remember from the moment our eyes met, our hearts knew what our minds could't comprehend. i have never felt such an unexplainable love that we share. i could never find enough words to express my love for u. the feeling is so overwhelming that a moment without u is like a thousand years with the sun. i want to give to u the joy u have brought to my life. u are my living breath, my life, my love, my soulmate. i love u with all my heart.


love always,
ATIQAH

[wall]

we spent most of the day together

but today

i feel like there's a huge brick wall between me n him

i cannot get over it alone..i need him to breaking down the wall

hoping tomorrow

is a better day for us than yesterday

i LoVe U

my boyfriend SYAFIQ

i love him so much =)

myself ATIQAH

i love my self so much too =p

WE

we love each other dearly and deeply =)

i love this man..i know he still mad at me bcoz he didn't reply my sms. i don't want to call him bcoz i don't want to ruin his mood. i know he is really busy lately to handle his charity event, will be held this weeknd. it's ok baby..just take ur time. u asked me for a time, i give it to u. i just want u to know, i always wait for u no matter what. i'm sorry that i cry for u. i'm sorry bcoz i can't live without u. i'm sorry of being insane. but believe me that i love u from the bottom of my heart. should i say sorry for that too??

hopeless

having no hope??having no possibility of solution??is it true??
dear GOD!!i know YOU hear me,YOU hear every word come from my pray.do miracles really happen?if it's happen please!!give it to me..please give me some hope. i know n i admit, i am an idiot girl who always repeating the same stupid mistakes! perhaps this is just a nightmare. perhaps any minute now i might wake up n walk in the beautiful sunshine :(

dear baby,
i know that it is all my fault..i cannot control myself when i'm angry..i mad at myself everytime i'm hurting u. i know it is bad attitude of me!! but u know me well baby, that's only my weaknesses. no one is perfect. everyone have their own weaknesses. so do me n u. i'm so sorry.. i love u so much n i always do.

the beginning

hello everyone.. i am ATIQAH. just call me TIKA =) i'm new here and i just wanted to say hello to everyone. i've actually been reading a lot of blog for a while but i don't think i will ever own my own blog..my boyfriend asked me to do it for many times but i'm refused to bcoz i never wrote about myself even in a diary =p i hate to write n i don't know what to write n if i try, i will make it only halfway. i guess my journey is so boring!!

but i think i need a blog starting from today since i feel empty n alone..i need someone to talk to,to throw out all the rubbish inside my mind n perhaps, sharing my happiness.