hopeless

having no hope??having no possibility of solution??is it true??
dear GOD!!i know YOU hear me,YOU hear every word come from my pray.do miracles really happen?if it's happen please!!give it to me..please give me some hope. i know n i admit, i am an idiot girl who always repeating the same stupid mistakes! perhaps this is just a nightmare. perhaps any minute now i might wake up n walk in the beautiful sunshine :(

dear baby,
i know that it is all my fault..i cannot control myself when i'm angry..i mad at myself everytime i'm hurting u. i know it is bad attitude of me!! but u know me well baby, that's only my weaknesses. no one is perfect. everyone have their own weaknesses. so do me n u. i'm so sorry.. i love u so much n i always do.